It is human to sometimes wonder if the info and promises in the Bible are really true. Our walk is
designed to be fueled by faith and we are supposed to hold on 'till the
end. (Matthew 24:13) That means that there will be many things along the way to challenge our faith.
I
have suffered many serious struggles in my life and am still enduring. At times I have wondered does God really love me or
how can He love me with this going on or that having happened? I have
had so many trials that I have occasionally wondered is He even really
there?
I'm learning how to talk to God about it all, because He already
knows. We can't hide from Him when we are depressed, angry,
fearful, discouraged and disillusioned with Him. During these times, I am learning to be
open, honest and transparent with myself and with Him.
What my honesty does is point me back to His Word. I may occasionally wonder if what I believe is really true, but I DO believe His Word. My faith in His Word is unshakeable. It is the flesh that is weak and that questions. How did my faith in God's Word become strong? By reading and studying it everyday, whether for a short period or a long period.
When I question all of the things that I've learned and believe in, I know it is my flesh that is feeling that. When I'm in the flesh, my focus is off and nothing of God is real to me. At those times, I can't feel my faith alive in me because faith in God is not based on feelings.
Additionally, the carnal mind is not even subject to the Law of God. (Romans 8:7-8) It can't think and function in agreement with God. Since the flesh is ruled by the carnal mind, it can't recognize and function in the faith of God. It is an enemy of God.
When I get back into my re-born
spirit, everything is ok and I know that what I have learned in His Word
is all true. I know that he loves me and always has. I know that I've been redeemed and that I will see and live within His Glory when I leave this earth. I have no doubts in my re-born spirit, where I walk by faith, not by sight or feelings.